Unpopular Opinion: Why the Texas abortion ban & PH No-Divorce law is not a win for Christianity

Unpopular Opinion: Why Texas anti-abortion law & PH Divorce law is not a win for Christianity.

Let me preface by saying that I do believe that life is precious, and that marriage is sacred. I’m partly conflicted to be honest when I read the news. In one hand, why not rejoice for what my fellow Christians are fighting for. In the other, is it really worth fussing about? I admit, these are tricky, flammable subjects.

Think about it. These laws prohibit behavior, and let’s be real, these are behaviors that don’t really concern Christians to begin with. Let me clarify that. If you do believe, then chances are you really won’t get an abortion or get a divorce. Alright, good, but it’s your choice to do so. The problem with these laws is that it prevents other people from being able to choose these things for themselves. It’s all a matter of being able to choose, right. Even Jesus did not force Himself on people, we believe and follow because we want to. We chose to.

It’s hypocrisy for the same people calling out “Let us worship!” against church restrictions during COVID, against mask mandates, or vaccine passports to rally against something that takes choice away from the person.

Let’s be real, Christians. Ultimately, these laws won’t and can’t change people’s hearts and minds. People who would want to get an abortion but can’t will still get an abortion elsewhere at a back alley, a sketchy doctor with no accountability, and a clothes hanger. It prevents people who need it from getting the services and care they need. And people who wanted a divorce but can’t will end up in a worse place – jail, dead, or a miserable rest of their lives. If you’re a Christian, your freedom to live out what you believe in won’t change with or without these laws. You will still be able to say no to abortion, and say no to divorce. But it does matter for everyone else who need these things.

This whole matter just shows how disconnected “churchianity” is with the world and its struggles. I don’t even want to call it Christianity, because it’s so opposed to what Christ called us to do – love our neighbors. We’ve become so entrenched in our own “conservative Christian church culture” that we can’t even see or relate to the struggles of the people around us. I don’t know about you, but whether abortion or divorce is legal or not doesn’t change what I believe in, but I won’t force what I believe in on others, nor add to their distress.

This whole thing just alienates (no… disgusts) the rest of the world against Christianity. It’s not a witness to the love that Christianity is supposedly for. To call this “love” is BS. It’s a witness of the hypocrisy and bigotry modern day churchianity has become. We’ve become obsessed with rules, protocols, and programs. Obsessed with personal freedoms for ourselves to practice what we believe in, and a complete disregard for other people’s personal freedom to practice theirs.

How can these laws be a win for Christianity when it’s no longer about Christ but laws? Or have we forgotten where the Law has gotten us before? Rather than go after laws, why can’t we better serve and support those who are pregnant considering abortion, or those considering divorce? It does nothing to address the underlying problems that lead to people resorting to these options.

And I don’t know about anyone else, but for me… This highly legalistic, politicized version of Christianity is as sickening as the Pharisees of the early church.

From Restlessness to Rest

It’s been some time now that I wanted to write again, but I never got around to figuring out how to put it into words. There’s so much that God has been teaching me, so much that I can’t quite express. For a while now, I thought my voice has been taken away. My public failure silenced me, that I no longer wanted to write, or even speak about what Jesus has done. How can I right? How can someone who professes to love Christ fall so far? For some time I felt shame, embarrassment, and guilt. I deserved all of this, so I punished myself. So in my heart I thought, there was nothing that I could say or write that can ever redeem my failure. In some way, that was right… There was nothing I could ever do because Jesus already did that for me.

It’s not about you.
It’s not about what you do.
It’s not about what you can’t do.

This has been an echoing phrase throughout our discipleship meetings. It’s not about me, not about what I can or can’t do.

You see even through my Christian life, I carried over my constant ‘need’ to do something. I always thought I should be doing something, anything… otherwise I felt that I wasn’t doing what I was supposed to. That in itself wasn’t a bad thing. Because God calls all of us to show our faith through our works. To be doers of the Word, and not just hearers. After all, faith without works is dead, right? (James 1&2)

When I was new, I was so passionate about God that I wanted to do it all. Put me anywhere, I’ll do it. I involved myself with as many different ministries. I took up the Sound Techs, during the time when there was a need. Raised up to the occasion when there was a need in the Youth. And eventually, the worship team. Being involved in all of this wasn’t bad by itself. In fact, they were all good things.

To me, however, that became a major pitfall. I loved doing something so much that I was motivated more by what good things I was doing than by who I was doing it for. God sees the heart, and He saw through me. In a matter of time, it became less and less about God and more about what I can do for Him. He knew where this was leading me, and it did lead me there. I eventually burnt myself out and became an easy target for the enemy. I lost passion communing with Jesus and became more interested in doing things for Him. I became more like Martha, more concerned with doing things than just resting at Jesus’ feet like Mary. My spiritual weakness became apparent, and my sin became a public spectacle of a classic ‘this is what should be avoided’.

Through all of this, God still shows Himself a loving God. He redeems me through my shortcomings. God already loved me, even before I started to do anything. He loved me so much that He called me towards Him. God took everything that distracted me from seeking Him first. I found myself in a place where there was absolutely nothing I could do, for Him to be able to show me who He is. He is the one who moves mountains, not me. He took away all the doing so that I could just sit in His lap and be His son.

It’s not about you, and what you can do.

It’s all about God, and what He can do.

That’s all that the Father really wants… for His sons and daughters to cry out “Abba Father.” All He really wanted from me was to stop all the doing and just relax. To move my restless heart and place it in His hands. The more that I just soak myself in His Rest, the more that His peace fills me. The less I strive, the more that He is able to work in me, and through me.

My life verse has always been Matthew 6:33

Seek first the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness, and all else will be given to you.

Now, everything makes more sense.

That seeking Him wasn’t really that I was striving to find Him, but simply that I look in the direction where He was already waiting.

If God was Enough

Last weekend, our church had a revival night. All week I prayed for an encounter with God. I kept praying for God to reveal Himself to me, the same way He did a couple years back when I was first starting out. I wanted to experience Him that same way again. I wanted a Holy Spirit encounter again to just blow me away. Saturday passed, and then Sunday — Nothing.

I remember Pastor saying that sometimes God responds not in fire or earth shaking, but in a still small voice– a whisper. I was waiting for fire to come down from heaven and just overflow in me, but God wanted to speak to me in a whisper. So when He whispered I shrugged it off and asked God again to please, ‘Can I please just experience You again that same way?’ — Still nothing.

Then at that point, Pastor started talking about Moses. At how Moses was with God, at how much he desired God’s presence. Moses wanted to know God, but he wasn’t content at that.

Moses Sees the Lord’s Glory

12 One day Moses said to the Lord, “You have been telling me, ‘Take these people up to the Promised Land.’ But you haven’t told me whom you will send with me. You have told me, ‘I know you by name, and I look favorably on you.’ 13 If it is true that you look favorably on me, let me know your ways so I may understand you more fully and continue to enjoy your favor. And remember that this nation is your very own people.”

14 The Lord replied, “I will personally go with you, Moses, and I will give you rest—everything will be fine for you.”

15 Then Moses said, “If you don’t personally go with us, don’t make us leave this place. 16 How will anyone know that you look favorably on me—on me and on your people—if you don’t go with us? For your presence among us sets your people and me apart from all other people on the earth.”

17 The Lord replied to Moses, “I will indeed do what you have asked, for I look favorably on you, and I know you by name.”

18 Moses responded, “Then show me your glorious presence.”

19 The Lord replied, “I will make all my goodness pass before you, and I will call out my name, Yahweh,[c] before you. For I will show mercy to anyone I choose, and I will show compassion to anyone I choose. 20 But you may not look directly at my face, for no one may see me and live.”21 The Lord continued, “Look, stand near me on this rock. 22 As my glorious presence passes by, I will hide you in the crevice of the rock and cover you with my hand until I have passed by. 23 Then I will remove my hand and let you see me from behind. But my face will not be seen.”

Exodus 33

Moses wasn’t just content with just knowing God… He wanted His presence to be with him. At this point, God whispered unto my spirit ‘I will personally go with you.’

Pastor continued to exhort and read a part in Deuteronomy.

Then the Lord said to Moses, “This is the land I promised on oath to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob when I said, ‘I will give it to your descendants.’ I have now allowed you to see it with your own eyes, but you will not enter the land.”

So Moses, the servant of the Lord, died there in the land of Moab, just as the Lord had said. The Lord buried him in a valley near Beth-peor in Moab, but to this day no one knows the exact place.

Deuteronomy 34

When Moses died, he didn’t get to go to the promised land. He was able to see it, but not enjoy it. I always saw this as a point of regret. Why did Moses have to make that one mistake, and mess up his chances of getting into the promised land. Just because of that one mistake…

But Moses did get a better part… He knew God face-to-face, and even in his death, God himself buried him.

10 There has never been another prophet in Israel like Moses, whom the Lord knew face to face.

Deuteronomy 34

So when Pastor prayed for me, he said something along the lines of having the kind of heart as Moses… To have that kind of relationship with God. To hold onto Matthew 6:33. (To seek first the Kingdom of God, more importantly… the King) That part continued to stick to me. So many exciting things are happening to the church lately, and I thought to myself maybe I am like Moses in this. Now that the things I’ve been waiting for when I was starting out are happening, I feel a sort of excitement and regret because of my own failure. What if like Moses, I can’t have any part of the promised land except to see it with my own eyes. Would that be enough? Would God be enough?

If there was no blessing, no favor, or anything, but just God Himself, will that be enough?

Even now, I continue to pray for God to reveal Himself to me the way Moses knew Him. Even now I continue to have mixed feelings about it. But if I can’t have a part in the promised land, then God will be my full portion.